perspective.
“I don’t know.“Isighed.
“Daughter, follow your heart. If your heart is telling you to be with William, be with him. Don’t be held back by fear. Just be happy!”
1 hugged my mother tightly as if my life depended on it. I tried even more in her arms.
is
“Now,” she said, pulling me away and wiping my tears. “You’re going to take a shower and get dressed. Today is Sunday, and we’re having a barbecue.”
My body tensed up. I knew he would come, he always does.
“I don’t want to see him.”
“You can’t avoid him forever. Daughter, he’s your father’s best friend and very close to our family. He’s always been present in everything, he shows up here every day. There’s no way to moid it… Uh your head, princess. And react!”
Princess…
1 loved it when he called me that.
I knew my mother was right, I couldn’t avoid him forever. Sooner or later, I have to see him.
“Okay,” I agreed. TIl take a shower.”
My mother smiled and got up from the bed, extending her hand to help me up, which I did, hugging her once again.
I love my mother, and I love our companionship even more. I love our bond. My mother has always been and will always
lways be my be
my best friend.
I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I wanted to stay there for hours, but I knew my mother was waiting for me, and I didn’t want to disappoint her even more.
Furthermore, I took a quick shower and realized it was a good idea. I felt a little better and more ready to face this barbecue.
I came out of the bathroom wrapped in my robe, and as I expected, my mother was waiting for me there.
I’ve picked out your outfit,” she said, pointing to the bed and indicating the clothes she chose. I even missed when I used to do this every day, the smiled with the
memories.
- ty. It had a neckline a
around
“Thank you, Mom,” I said, taking the clothes to put on.
care of you, my girl, until I gather all the pieces of your broken heart,” she said tenderly, and damn it, I wanted to ery again.
T’ll take c
I nodded, unable to say anything, and started getting dressed. My mother chose a short black dress with some red flowers; it was pretty.
the chest area.
“You look beautiful, she smiled.
I smiled back at my mother and slipped on a pair of shiny flat sandals.
“Are you go
going to do your makeup?” she asked, and I shook my head.
I knew I looked terrible, with dark circles from crying and sleepless nights, but I was already doing more than I thought I could at this barbecue.
“Let’s go, then,” she said, opening the door to my room and leaving
Thesitated again and considered staying in my room. I didn’t want to see him.
Would he come?
I prayed he wouldn’t.
My house felt empty emotionally, but in the outdoor barbecue area, there was a cluster of my father’s friends and their partners.
Separated
him to
to
I walked into the barbecue area, feeling people’s eyes on me. But there was one gaze in particular that I felt burning into my body; I didn’t need to meet know it was him. I made the mistake of glancing to my left, and there he was. He looked more handsome than I remembered, holding his ever–present whiskey glass. He was looking at me, not hiding how much my presence affected him, and my eyes weren’t obeying my commands because I wanted to stop staring at him, but once again, I failed.
