Chapter 35
I wonder what it was that was making Terry angry. It couldn’t possibly be because he saw Quinn with me, or because I spent time with him
Trouldn’t stand the thought of Terry being upset withi everything so personally! He knew how much
ever Quinn. Thad explained to him, so why was Terry arting like this? Why was talking about my jou
It wasn’t just about Quina, though, I could feel it. There was something che, something Terry wasn’t telling me. And I couldn’t stop thinking about the way he had ignored me, simet ng he had never done before.
Thad to fix this: 1 haud to talk to him and clear things. Lcouldn’t lose my friend
I decided I’d go see him, I entered any car and repmed off to his place. The closer I got to liis place, I felt uneasy. Thept thinking about what I was going to say because I was out of work.
1 honked my car as I reached the gate of his house. The gate in unlocked the gate quite fast. Fronddot help but be ammmed that his gate man wasn’t sleeping as usual. I parked the car and walked towards the front door. Het out a deep breaths before raising my hand to knock at the door. He unlocked the door and les me in, his eyes cold. I didn’t like that, his eyes were always kind and warm, laut now it was different.
“Hey.” I called out softly as 1 sat on the sofa opposite him.
“I know I messed up by not telling you things as friends should, I’m sorry, I already explained to you in his presence that I was just showing my gratitude, he helped me
He didn’t say anything. He just kept looking at the floor, clenching his jaws.
“I mean, it’s Quinn, right?” I continued, trying to piece things together. “You of all people know how it hurts me talking about it, but why are you so upset!”
Still, he kept mute. His silence was driving me insane. He just sat there, still looking at the flour as if there were something pretty in it to look at.
“Terry, please talk to me I begged “Why are you taking this so seriously? It wasn’t even a big deal. Quinn hurt me, yeah, but that’s over. I don’t understand why this is getting between us.”
I peered at him, waiting to see if he would say somethin
say
1 could feel my patience running out. I had come to fix things, but he wasn’t even giving me a chance, he wouldn’t even talk to me. The words came out before I could stop them.
“Why are you doing this!” I snapped. “Why are you acting like this? Why does this matter so much to your
It seemed like it did the trick, he finally looked up from the floor. “You want to know why, huh? You really want to know why? Can’t you see it? Or you’re turning oblivious to it.” He said, his voice raising.
“Because it’s not about Quinn!” he yelled. “It’s about you, Ana! It’s always been about you!”
Realization hit me, I shook my head in denial. “No, no, it can’t be
“You su it there talking about Quinn like he’s the only reason, but don’t you get it? I’ve been sining here for years, watching you, and it’s killing me. can’t just stand by and pretend I’m line with it anymore.”
My hears was racing now,
“I love you, Ana,” he finally said, his voice soft. “I’ve been in love with you all these years. And you don’t even see it. Believe me, I tried. I tried pushing those feelings away because I knew you saw me as your best friend, but they kept coming back stronger than before.” He said.
but for a different reason. I was staring at him, what i had been trying to avoid thinking about turned out to be it.
I couldn’t move, I couldn’t say a word. I could see the emotions in his eyes, pain, anger, tiredness. The air in the room suddenly felt suffocating.
Now it was my turn to be mute.
You don’t know how it feels, seeing you with Quinn, the one who hurt you. It’s like needles are being pierced in my heart.” He said.
“I can’t keep pretending, Ana, he continued, his voice full of emotion. “I can’t keep acting like this is nothing to me because it’s not. It’s everything. You’re everything
I wanted to say something, to respond, but my
my mind was in a whirlwind of emotions now. I had never seen Terry like this. He was my best friend who had been with me in my toughest moment, I hadn’t imagined him to be more than that
We stood there, in the thick, heavy silence, his words hanging between us. His eyes were locked on mine, filled with something I hadn’t seen before.
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Hope, fear, vulnerability. He was waiting for me to say something, anything.
And then he spoke instead, saying those words which I had been dreading to hear, which I knew was true deep down but didn’t want to accept. always in denial, he had hurt me. I couldn’t feel this.
I was
“Ive always known you won’t accept me because he’s still in your heart. Yet, I still wanted to try. You’re still in love with him. That’s why it hurts so much, loving you and knowing you would never love me back.” He said.
“If wishes were horses, beggars would ride.” He said, chuckling dryly.
I was still in love with Quinn, I hated myself for it. It made me feel vulnerable. 1 had acted indifferent and cold, thinking those feelings would die. but they only increased.
The more I spent time with him, the more the feelings increased. My head ached, all these were too much for me. One thing was certain, the relationship between me and Terry would never be the same again.
